it is freaking cold out today! hopefully gets a little warmer before my lesson. playing this whole waiting game is annoying, i just want my horse to have her baby. but i really do think its coming soon, as it should be. May seems like a ridiculously busy month for me. Not only am i riding every chance i can getting ready for my first shows coming up, but next week im starting drivers training and i still work 2 days a week, OH YEAH and i go to school everyday. But i only have to work for 6 more weeks. Which gives me about 600 bucks. I have many bills to pay. Oh course right now i have a lot of money, but thats only because i haven’t paid for my car yet. money is going to be such an issue for me this fucking summer. im really sick of being poor. i cannot wait until next fall when i can have a full time job and nothing to spend money on! but i’m hoping to make some extra cash breaking my friends horse… but i want that money to buy a new western outfit.. i would really light a new shirt and some nice chaps. I’m hoping to convince my mom to buy them and i’ll pay her back ha ha ha which i will! but already owe her my part of our new trailer (which we’re getting tomorrow <3). Anyway i should get dressed and stuff. have a good day.

well. here i am. all my plans are horse related. but i dont regret this life i chose. as it was my choice. i just dont feel motivated to go ride tequila right now, i’m cold and its windy and i already rode for 3 hours today. i just wish i had like a friend in the neighborhood. i miss hanging out in town, doing nothing, but just being with people. i miss reuben… he was in town last week and i saw him, but i didn’t really see him, ya know… and dave sinclair, it was so nice just to walk and talk and joke with him, i miss him too. owen sound has always sucked, but at least before there were places to hang out and drink.. not anymore. i wish i was leaving in the fall. today i feel blue…

Today my family and i are off to buy a new horse trailer. thank god. mine is not safe and slants are just x2 so much easier. i am helping to pay for it but not until later.. kind of like an i.o.u.

i also bought an English saddle on Wednesday - love it. its black, adjustable gullet, all purpose. It will fit any horse any time, all you have to do is buy a gullet. it fits Tequi pretty good with no change in gullet but when i have the money i might see if there is a gullet that fits her better.

Yesterday i helped my parents paint the living room. i had to do the trim line and the lines around the outlets. but we got the whole first coat done last night.

Anyway i have everything i need in my life to be happy right now, and i am REALLY pumped for the summer. (ok i have a few more things to buy but thats okay…)

I am really looking forward to showing this year. <3my babies. Bayley is due in about a week! crazy. so pumped.

Anyway i must go!

I am in a really good mood! Yay for me! I just had a really really good ride on Oakie ANNNNNNNND i got my SMB Elite Boots (that are for my horse in case you’re wondering what those are..) AHA HA HA HA HA! And i made a new friend today; go me!

UPDATE: JAIME NOW OWNS A CAR! HA! must not talk in third person.

That is.

all.

i feel like being ridiculous. so here it is. my favorite words are pretentious and waffles, but not together. i get amusement out of many words, such as… muffin tin. I came to the conclusion today, whilst having a discussion with my dear friend Kayla, that my fate was decided by a pony. Strange you may say. But mostly true. Really my fate was decided by two people having some sort of sexual relations (because as Trevor pointed out i could be the result of semen leakage from my mothers asshole…) but who i am and how i am and why i am the way i am was all decided by the first pony i ever rode. I dont want to explain how just accept it. I am doing poorly in school lately, why because i’ve stopped caring. i say no to school. (to the gas chambers…). I was Hamlet today, in english class, though i am not nearly as insane nor complex as he is, nor was i meant to be (having had a pony dictate who i am). That said, maybe i am that complex i’m just too stupid to realize it, or to understand it, or to explore my mind to the depths that needs to be to realize how complex one truly is. Bio told me today that humans are complex because 95% of our DNA is junk DNA, and it is theorized that the more “junk”DNA is in an organism the more complex they are. Compared to bacteria that have 0% junk DNA only one cell and are very primitive perhaps this is true. But there is no proof, because junk DNA is probably very hard to study. Some people theorize that junk DNA contains imprinted memories and instinct and such. Is this enough psycho babble for today?

my body is engaged in civil war.

my organs must be duking it out with some sort of artillery.

my heart, lungs, intercostal muscles, kidneys, intestines, muscles, it all hurts.

but im sure i’ll be fine… they’ll settle it soon right? either that or the US will invade and it will go on forever!

okay that was my terrible attempt at being funny and or political which i am neither.

Good night

my dad always told me how he had to beat women off with sticks when he was a teenager.

i think i should get a stick…

voila! the pieces fit. maybe not the most ideal way. but.. hey its something. im positive.

bitches, i got new pants… again.

also, i started stretching my 2nd earhole on my left ear.

now that is all.

life goes by fast in blog form i have discovered…

i wanted to remember what life was like a year ago… so i read my whole blog from a year ago today. fucked up. i love remembering somethings, but some of it made me sad!

OH well. no sschoool tomorrow. Trevor should call me or something… <3